Epic Fail

Most people have a morning routine.  My morning routine (during the week) looks something like this:  My alarm goes off at 4:30 AM and I immediately push "Snooze".  I talk to God and thank Him for another day and I ask Him for strength.  I then spend the next five to ten minutes trying to talk myself into getting up to work out.  Sometimes I get up and reset my alarm for 5:15...sometimes I get up and work out.  Then, I get ready and while I'm getting myself ready, I think about all the things I am going to accomplish that day (I am going to be a loving wife who spends quality time with my husband.  I am going to be a patient and loving mommy who doesn't yell at her children or let them watch too much T.V.  I am going to get to work on time.  I am going to finally make a breakthrough with that one student and he is going to follow expectations all day long and thank me at the end of the day for all I have done for him :)  I am going to take time to eat lunch with my friends [or just take time to eat lunch].  I am going to pick my children up early enough to get home and make a healthy dinner, give baths, finish laundry and still do an hour or two of paperwork for school the next day.)  Then, I wake my children up and we spend the next hour scrambling to get out of the door on time and my day NEVER goes as I had planned it in my mind and it has become an epic fail!  Some days come pretty close to the plan, but some days (like today) don't come close at all.  Today, I was supposed to joyfully drop my children off at school/daycare, attend a faculty meeting, be the best teacher I could be and get caught up on paperwork this afternoon because I didn't have any meetings scheduled, go grocery shopping and then relax at home in the evening.  But...when I went to get my daughter out of her crib this morning I could tell right away that she had a fever and an awful, raspy cough.  My first thought was not, "Poor baby...I'm so sorry you are sick."  My first thought was, "I don't have time for this today." and "I can't miss ANOTHER day of work."  I had a little fit and then I began making a new plan in my mind.  And an hour later, I had to make another new plan.  And a half hour later, I had to make another new plan.  And, I could let the cycle continue all day long...I could keep making plans and keep changing them, or...I could just take a deep breath and ask God to reveal His plan for my day.  His plan looks something like this:  look at the situation that is in front of you right in this moment, thank me for it and glorify me through it.  WOW...that is much simpler than my plan(s) for my day and much more doable. The truth is, I don't have any control over anything in this world and when I really think about that...it is actually a relief.  I'm not in control, but my Creator, my Savior, my Lord IS in control.  I don't need to accomplish all the things I think I need to accomplish each day in this world because He has overcome this world.  I may be failing on a daily basis to be everything to everyone all the time, but I am never a failure in God's eyes!  So...right now I see a little sick girl in front of me and I'm going to thank God for her and glorify Him by showing her His great love...an epic success!!!