I've always thought of myself as a klutz. A day doesn't go by that I don't drop something, run into something or knock something over. My poor children have had multiple (minor) injuries from me stepping on them or bumping into them. I have NEVER made cookies without burning at least one batch because I start doing something else and totally forget about the cookies in the oven until I smell the burning. It wasn't until about two years ago that I realized that I'm not really a klutz or a bad baker...I simply cannot multitask. The reason I continuously run into things, drop things, burn things, etc...is because I'm rarely thinking about what I'm doing. While I'm busy doing one thing, I'm thinking about the next thing that needs to be done. I have trouble just being in the moment and focusing on one thing at a time. I have trouble releasing control of my life and not worrying or planning every little thing, but I'm getting better. The more I learn about God, the more I can release control and trust in His plan for my life. The more I read His word and spend time with Him in prayer, the more I can keep a peaceful and eternal perspective in this chaotic world.
One night as I was making spaghetti for my family, I was also thinking about the laundry I needed to get done, the school work that I wanted to complete, giving my daughter a bath. packing my lunch for the next day, what was on the schedule for the next day, etc... While this was a moment where I was just worrying about day to day things, there are many moments in my life when I worry about "bigger" things like money, my children (their safety, behavior, learning, salvation, health) my own health, my marriage, my friendships, etc...As I stirred the spaghetti sauce, I suddenly remembered a conversation we had in our small group about just thinking about one thing at a time and being in the moment. We talked about how God desires for us to have peace and trust...He does not want us to waste our time worrying. In that moment, I put my trust in God and simply focused on stirring the sauce. What freedom I felt! There is freedom in releasing control and just being in the moment. There is freedom in trusting God in all areas of my life. There is freedom in knowing that I'm not a klutz or poor multitasker or bad baker...I am a precious, perfect child of God. So, now when my life gets chaotic and I feel like a mess, I remind myself to simply "stir the sauce" and I feel free!
Mathew 6: 34--Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for each will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
