Typos

It has been a long time since I have posted.  It has been so long, in fact, that I decided to go back and reread previous posts because I couldn't remember what I had written.  As I read, I was shocked by the number of typos/mistakes that I found.  I was so shocked because I really dislike typos (I think it's the teacher in me) and I know I had proofread those entries at least five times each.  Actually, I proofread anything I write (even my text messages) because I really dislike typos.  I almost went back into each blog entry and corrected my typos/mistakes, but then I stopped myself and began wondering how I could have possibly published those blog entries with so many mistakes when I proofread each entry at least five times.  I realized that I had been so caught up in my thoughts that I wasn't able to think clearly about spelling and grammar.  I began to think about times in my life when I was so caught up in my current situation and how it was so hard to see clearly.  There have been so many times that I have been in the middle of a struggle and I have been unable to really think clearly about things.  On a daily basis, I struggle with life.  I have small struggles, medium-sized struggles and really big struggles.  Through the really big struggles, I have trouble seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and I have trouble understanding God's purpose for the struggle.  I focus on the pain, frustration, anger, hurt, loneliness, etc... that I might be feeling at that moment instead of focusing on God's plan for me with that particular struggle.  In the midst of the struggle, I don't think clearly!  When the suffering finally goes away, I can see clearly.  I can see that that particular struggle was actually a blessing...a blessing that brought me to my knees...a blessing that changed my relationship with my Father...a blessing that brought me closer to Him.  I wouldn't have the relationship with God that I have today if it weren't for the suffering that I have endured.  The daily struggles that bring me to my knees have a purpose and the purpose is not to think about how I could have done things differently to avoid suffering and have a perfect life...the purpose is to grow closer to God.  So, I have decided that I will not go back and correct my typos/mistakes and have perfect blog entries.  Instead, I will leave them be and use the time it would have taken me to fix the mistakes to praise God and thank Him for all He has given me!